today is gonna be difficult.

today.i plan not to think abt the situation.its difficult i must say.cus din i say before?one minute doesnt go by tat i dont think abt it.its just horrible.i cant focus on anything.i feel so useless.i feel like im not good enough for anything anymore.its not yo[u]r fault.its not cus of this whole thing.its not jus my self-esteem tats going down but its like i dunno wat to do anymore.im jus so lost for words.
_____i guess ive always been trying to solve evriything with all the other prblems,tat now at this point of time wen its most critical,i really dunno wat to do.i dunno where im supposed to go frm here.literally,u guys know tat i don have a great sense of direction,imagine emotionally?im freaking lost laa.hahaas.all i can do is sigh n shake my head.i don know wats gonna be happening,im not psychic .yeah so i guess i jus gotta wait.but i cant jus sit here n see evrything happening!!it's hurts like hell laa.i mean im not fragile okayy?im a big girl n im sure i can take almost everything thrown at me.i mean im trying to be posotive.its all i can do.n if im negative,let me be.its my way of venting anger.
_____at least its better den cutting myself or punching the freaking wall[agree sharon?]its 12:46pm.they're playing"BLVD OF BROKEN DREAMS!" ahh!!i think its gonna start raining!![if u know wat i mean?]yeahh.fated ayy?to hear this song?haiyo..yeah anyway,yo[u]r entry on the 28th broke my heart.its alrite.hope yo[u] like the song below.heh.weelll,tats all folks.catch ya'll soon!loves.take care ya'll!! :]-inked

"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined.
I'm just beginning,the pen's in my hand,
ending unplanned.
Staring at the blank page before you.
Open up the dirty window,
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find.
Reaching for something in the distance,
So close you can almost taste it,
Release your inhibitions,

Feel the rain on your skin,
No one else can feel it for you,
Only you can let it in.
No one else, no one else can speak the words on your lips.
Drench yourself in words unspoken,
Live your life with arms wide open,
Today is where your book begins,
The rest is still unwritten.
Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries,
are outside the lines,
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you,
Open up the dirty window,
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find.
Reaching for something in the distance,
So close you can almost taste it,
Release your inhibitions.

Feel the rain on your skin,
No one else can feel it for you,
Only you can let it in,
No one else, no one else can speak the words on your lips,
Drench yourself in words unspoken,
Live your life with arms wide open,
Today is where your book begins,
-chorus-

Staring at the blank page before you,
Open up the dirty window,
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find.
Reaching for something in the distance,
So close you can almost taste it,
Release your inhibitions.
-chorus 3x-
the rest is still unritten .3x

"beautiful soul"
I don't want another pretty face,
I don't want just anyone to hold,
I don't want my love to go to waste,
I want you and your beautiful soul,
You're the one I wanna chase,
You're the one I wanna hold,
I wont let another minute go to waste,
I want you and your beautiful soul.

I know that you are something special,
To you I'd be always faithful.
I want to be what you always needed,
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me,
-chorus-
yeah,You might need time to think it over,
But im just fine moving forward,
I'll ease your mind If you give me the chance,
I will never make you cry.
c`mon lets try,
-chorus-

Am I crazy for wanting you,
Baby do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time,
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know if you feel it too.
There is nothing left to hide,-chorus-